"As I was lying in a hospital bed /
a rock and roll nurse came to my head /
she said hold out your arm / stick out your tongue/
I got some pills I'm gonna give you some"
"Pills" Bo Diddley
Finally managed to see a doctor on Thursday. And his first name is actually Gaylord.
Poor kid, I'll bet high school was rough.
He asked a lot about medical history and the like, since this was my first time seeing him. my depression came up, and was then the main subject of discussion, and when I left he'd prescibed me a round of anti-depressants - specifically, a drug called Pristiq.
The first two days had me feeling very fidgety and squirmy from them - the best way to descibe it is they made me feel llike I'd been dosed with a teeeny, tiny, micro dose of Acid or of Ecstacy - not enough to be high, but just enough to feel slightly twisted.
On the plus side, I'm also not in as terrible of a headspace as I have been.
It makes me squirmy, as I say, and also causes some jaw clenching which is a problem for two reasons.
One it's just painful, plain and simple ;and two - the whole jaw clenching, teeth grinding thing is all part and parcel of the crack experience and so doing it is bringing on body memories which because of that association become a trigger.
My brain is fuzzy a bit too, and I'm having a bit of a problem concentrating, so I was worried that I wouldn't be be able to focus enough to write or get anything done but my head seems to be making a comeback today.
Prestiq is what is called a serotonin norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor
As with most of these SNRIs, "weird" side effects are supposed to go away in a week or two.
I'll post an update if anything more happens with them.
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